One, two, buckle my shoe...

So, the monkeys are now 2 years and 4 months old. This blows my mind. BLOWS my mind. I look at NICU pics of them both laying on my chest, together not even totalling 7lbs, and I can barely believe how time has flown. Everyone tells you. You hear it over and over. Yet nothing prepares you.

Sadie started out being our talker and would often speak for the both of them.Now Langdon won't stop talking and amazes me every single day with her growing vocabulary. Sadie runs around singing Barney's hit "I love you....you love meeee" and "one, two buckle my shoe, fighhh sihhh, stix". Langdon is constantly begging, "I cook mama??", "Alright??" which is her request for Darius' latest hit. She also has a new thing where if she gets upset she'll look at you mid weep and smile through the crocodile tears and say "I better!" It weakens me in the knees and I'm fairly certain she could have anything she asked for at that very moment.I couldn't be more proud of them both if I tried.


It's amazing how each phase seems like it's getting easier, yet harder at the same time. Every single second of it worth it by the way. I think we all know that I'm an emotional gal. Always have been, always will be and to be honest with you, as much as it probably bugs the mess out of people, I'm very proud of it. I'm so happy to be able to simply hold Langdon in her rocker and just rock while weeping. Weeping over the fact that I have finally gotten everything I have ever wanted. I am finally a mommy. I was blessed with two. I was blessed against all odds and despite all of the self doubt you could possibly imagine, I did it. With the help of an amazing Doctor, love, prayer, and an amazing husband, all of my dreams came true.

We spent the fourth, per usual in Topsail. That beach cottage holds the best memories of my life. I will always hold it so dear to my heart. It was where I was proposed to, it's where I've spent the last several birthdays with all of my closest friends, it's where our families come together and it is where our little family, just the four of us have had the pleasure of just being together. No interruptions, no stress, just spending time together. Oh it's just heaven and this years July 4th weekend was no different. We spent hours just playing on the beach and this emotional gal might have gotten weepy once or twice.


Sometimes I have moments when I love those monkeys so much I can't even take it. Sometimes I have moments when I could just walk out and leave because they've driven me absolutely mad. Lately it's the 'love em so much I can't take it' moments that prevail and right now and I couldn't be more thankful.